I want, I want to be able to eat anything and not gain weight. I want to be healthy and happy and full of joy. I want a to live in a world where people don't judge me because I'm different. I want unconditional love. I want to give unconditional love. I want friends and family to enjoy the holidays and birthdays with. I want to travel and learn more about the amazing world God created. I want to ride horses on the beach. I want to listen to waves crash along the beach as I go to sleep. I want the people around me to be happy and healthy and full of joy. Most of all, I want to make a difference. I want to inspire and encourage.
There are so many things I want, the list is endless. We all have a list, if you stop to think about it. Everything we do is driven by a want. You eat the things you do because you want it. You watch tv because you want to. You play because you want to. Everything you do is a choice driven by a want. Think about it.
In my first marriage I was a strict parent because if I wasn't there would be hell to pay. When I knew my ex was in a mood. I would send the kids to their rooms or to bed early. I wanted to keep the peace. I wanted to protect my children. These wants were motivated by someone else's actions. I didn't want him to yell, scream and cuss at me. I wanted peace. He wanted control. Sometimes our wants, are simply to survive the situation we are in. We want to get out but we don't know how so we hang on to keep the peace. Believe me, if you want something bad enough, you will find a way to get it.
In my first marriage, my wants were driven by survival. In my marriage now, my wants are driven by love. I want to share my life with my husband. I want to make new memories and experience new things together. I want to travel with him, laugh with him, cry with him, and live life with him. I want to work on my marriage together. I want to do things that make him happy and he does the same. I want now, because I can, not because of someone else mood.
I want you to know, there is life after divorce, there is life after being disowned, there is life after friends walk away, there are wants waiting on you. I may never be able to eat everything I want and not gain weight but I do get what I want most of the time. You can too. Believe in yourself. Have the respect for yourself to not let those that are suppose to love you, treat you disrespectfully. Take a stand, you are worth it!
What do you want?