This hasn’t been the best day of my life, however I have such a Peace and Joy that is filling my soul. I had a meeting with a few family members this morning. The meeting went about how I expected it to go, with a few exceptions. One person showed up that doesn’t have a dog in this race. As a matter of fact, he has told me on a number of occasions how horrible life is there. How he doesn’t even like being around her. I’ve listened to him vent many times. But today, he was there to form a united front against me. Oh the respect that was lost for him. As this meeting continued, I was called an ugly name by the one person that I never dreamed would talk to me like that. The one person that I’ve looked up to from the day I entered this world. It didn’t stop there. I was, in so many words, disowned. It was a sharp yet clean cut. It pierced my heart to the utter most center of my being. I held it together, in the face of haters that I once called family.
As I got in my car, the tears flowed. The pain poured out of my heart. I longed for my mother’s hugs and her words that I would be ok. That she raised a strong woman that would always overcome adversity. Little did I know at the time, those tears that poured out of me were cleansing me. I was being washed by God’s Grace. He was freeing me. Once the tears stopped, I felt Free! I can’t explain it but I felt 100 pounds lighter. The Bible says his yolk is light and for the first time I understand what that means. I don’t feel the burden I was carrying. The drama is gone, I seriously feel Peace that passes all understanding. I turned on my Christian music and began to dance around the house. The dogs think I’ve lost my mind. Maybe I have but the Joy of the Lord is flowing out of me and in my home. Whatever chains were keeping me in bondage have fallen . . I’m Free.
Reflections: Although they came to try and destroy me, they made me stronger. 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 NIV 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.